nothing to say

…..

just feel everything I do totally useless

excited turn to dissapointed

yeah this is my fault actually

you don’t even have to ask einstein or plato or galileo to say that this is my fault

again I’m using too much feelings

broke my own rules

nothing to say

better take a bath and go to sleep

hope this feelings will go away

Forbidden Love

They say some love didn’t meant to be

How strong you try, how many effort you have give

It just useless

Sometime you find someone

someone that absolutely yours

someone that makes you feel ” He or she is my half apple “

but sometimes this kind of person just can’t be your lover

You try so hard until you tired

You cry and cry but just can’t get the way to be with him or her

you simply can’t find the way to be with them

This kind of feeling kill you so hard

makes you feel sad

makes you cry all night long

but all you can do is just watch for them

You both get hurt

You both lost your smile

but this is the only way

Forbidden love

In books I read, In movie I watch,

this kind of love always brings tears

always bring the heart broken

and what will you do if you face this kind of love?

I wish I could be like Juliet

drinks my poison to be with my romeo and somehow although they both die

They love remains forever….

and my love will be like that too, always keep you deep inside in my heart..

Miss my ney

Miss my ney

Miss ney’s smile

Miss ney’s hand

Miss everything about ney

Lost my “home”

I lost my place to back
I lost my place to sleep
I lost my place to hang on
I lost my “home”

I lost the warmth
I lost the smile
I lost my message ringtone
I lost my “home”

So let me turn back the time
Let me be the old me
When I don’t know about love
When I just think about my self
Don’t care what others do
That seems the best time in my life for this 19 years
Let me back to that time

Jeaolusy

28 Nov 2009

02:40

Jealous. Why this feeling come in my heart???? I realize I have no right to feel this anymore. I don’t have any right to feel this. But still it hurts me. I cry once more. What I protect now, slowly but sure come out. All my sadness, soon will come out and kill me. Kill me, thrown me away to that darkness part again.  I can’t describe how much it hurt…but let my tears explain it… * sob *sob *sob *sob

“Edward”

28 Nov 2009

01:35

My “Edward” said to me ” You must live in reality”

And that change everything,  my light had been turn off. Only darkness. Emptiness. Meaningless. Useless. Why I keep waiting then? If  he, himself, seems to let me go. He doesn’t want me anymore. That change thing. All I do, All I keep pretending of, is useless, cause there’s no single hope anymore.

I can’t sleep. My stomach feels hurt. I just ate one single meal today. And it will be much much worse tomorrow. I don’t even know if I can eat. * sigh life was meaningless now

“Jacob” part 2

27 Nov 2009

22:36

My “Jacob” said he was lonely, I don’t know why, but I feel bad when I hear about that. What happened to him? Is he alright? Wish I can know what happen to him…* sigh

It will be hard for us to walk away. but let try it first..let’s fight!!! * sob *sob